Asifa Lahore, a drag performer from London who rose to fame after appearing on the documentary Muslim Drag Queens, speaks out about struggling with gender identity and making a final decision that she is a woman. In her coming out video Asifa revealed that she has already started her transition into female. “If I’m totally honest with myself, I’ve always been a woman It’s the happiest I’ve ever been,” the Pakistani-born drag performer says. Although, her spouse did not support her decision to be a woman and split with her. “He left me. And he left me because he couldn’t accept that I was a woman and that I am going to transition,” she said. Now she tries to balance her trans identity and Muslim faith: “I hated Ramadan with a vengeance because it was the ‘peak’ of my identity clash as an LGBTI Muslim. In order to adhere to the rules of Ramadan which are very much grounded in submission, sacrifice and reflection, I would have to take a month off partying in LGBTI venues, attending support groups and refrain from all sexual contact. This to me was very black and white In 2014, I decided to fast, take part in the parade, break my fast at the appropriate time, pray and then perform during the night. It was an exhausting yet for fulfilling experience because I did everything that both of my identities wanted to do. One wasn’t given up in favour of the other and I didn’t feel a sense of emptiness as I had done previously,” she says.