A retired NFL player Ryan O’Callaghan who came out as gay in the beginning of the summer says that now he feels completely happy and satisfied with his life. He was drafted to the New England Patriots in 2006, and has also played for the Kansas City Chiefs. Recently he broke up with his boyfriend. The relationship lasted 9 months, so it was hard to end it. But now everything is completely alright and the former sportsman focuses on a new project – writing a book. He also reflected on meeting clinical psychologist in Kansas city, Susan B. Wilson, and says that this person literally saved his life. O’Callaghan explained that he had tried to come out once before, in 2014, when he publicly thanked his boyfriend while receiving an award. He used football as his cover, as something that would have made him more masculine ( which he believed to have meant ‘less gay’). “No one is going to assume the big football player is gay. It’s why a football team is such a good place to hide,” he says. He thought that he would be hiding like this forever, and when he was unable to hide he thought his life would end: “My plan was to end my life after football. I thought that would be it, and I could never be an out gay man. I’m just glad there were people who pushed me in the right direction, and I could get help. I went and start talking to someone, and she said, why don’t you find out? I drove out to California and told my family [I was gay]. All the people I was most concerned about were fine, it was so much easier than I ever imagined,” he told Outsports.